It's been a crazy, mad, rough, torturous 10 months.
And it's now all over.

All that's left of me is an empty, aching heart.
But I am hopeful. For I have wonderful friends, and a wonderful God.

The tears keep flowing, my mind, my heart, my soul is aching.
But I will not fear.

I know I have let a lot of people worry about me. And in my friend's words, "You haven't been your cheerful self anymore".
I have a long journey ahead of me, but I know that I'm not alone.

Thank you my dear friends, for all the support you have given me.
Some things were just never meant to be.

I will continue on this journey.
But for now, things have come to an end, and it is time to close this journal.
I've had many happy, and sad memories here, all of which I hold dear to my heart.
Goodbye everyone, and thank you for being such faithful readers.

You'll know where to find me, if you want to.

Love,
Bernie.

First up, I have a really bad sore throat. I feel as though there's something stuck in my throat that's preventing me from talking. :(
Damn weather, I am so falling sick soon.

I woke up to a really strange dream this morning.
I dreamt that there was this whole group of people around me, and there was this guy, who very oddly resembled Jay Chou. HAHA.
I can only remember snippets of my dream, but from what i can recall, that Jay-Chou-look-alike guy wrote a really sweet note to me to tell me that he liked me. HAHAHAHAHA. (sorry, I find this so hilarious.. what the hell am I thinking in my sleep man -_-").
Then, I wasn't quite sure why, but he got chased away by the crowd of people. So he looked at me, and ran off.
I immediately shouted his name (which I cannot seem to remember), and ran after him. And he took my hand, and he looked really happy, and we ran off together.
I can't really remember what else happened. But the feeling I got when I woke up, was so nice and sweet. I didn't want to wake up from my dream!

So here's what I concluded:
1. I must have dreamt of a Jay Chou look-alike guy because last night, Jiaen was telling me about how she knows this really goodlooking guy who looks like Jay Chou.
2. I came home and asked my friend (online) if she knew of any new Jay Chou songs.
3. I miss the feeling of being loved. :(

Now you can go ahead and laugh at my ridiculous dream.

I'm gonna nurse my sore throat, then head out for lunch!

Liz's mom had to go to immigration again today, so we had to make a trip down to the city again this morning.
Shortly after lunch, there was a huge crowd with men and women all dressed in red parading in the middle of the city (for those who know perth, just outside david jones). And they had these tshirts on that said 'Red Dress Run 2008'.
There were heaps of them! Funny thing was, some men were dressed up in red nightys and dresses!
There was this particular guy who wore a see through nighty with a tiny red underwear. -_-" No, he wasn't cute. He was kindda hairy at the chest in fact. Ugh. Pity I didn't manage to take a picture of them.

This will see approximately 2000 runners dressed in red enjoying the sights of the city whilst raising money for charity.

The prime recipients will be the Perth Children’s Hospital and the Motor Neurone Disease Association."

The Aussies sure have an interesting way of doing things.

something's happening to me and i don't know how to deal with it.

lately i've been feeling like an empty shell. it's as though i simply do not care about anything in my life.
i used to get really bored and whine all the time if i stayed home for too many days. i'd want to get out of the house, meet my friends, just go shopping, have fun.
but recently, i just don't care anymore.
it doesn't bother me as much if i have to stay home from wed to sunday (because i only have classes on monday and tuesday. i know, what a slacker right? heh).
i've realised that i have nothing to look forward to. week after week, it's just school, and then home.
all i ever do at home is readings, chat, surf the net, and play bejeweled.
i feel like i'm such a freak cos i'm just glued to the laptop.

my heart and my mind feels very heavy. i havent truly felt lighthearted and happy about anything in a long time.
i used to cry a lot, just to get things out of my system. but i hardly even cry anymore.
why is that so?

i need something to cheer myself up.

met up with gloria and gina for lunch today at sakura. after which we went in search for our beloved BUBBLE TEA! sadly, no more cool station. so we settled for the bubble tea at graffiti cafe. which was pretty good too!

because i was away on valentine's day (enjoying hongkong! :D), the boy took me to Wild Rockets for our belated valentine's day dinner. really good food and ambience i must say. :)

and finally, the rest of the photos (that i've got on my com). will post the rest of the photos once i get them from mike :)

ok everyone. i finally found some time to blog more photos. :) so here goes!

i haven't blogged in a really long time!
i know there's this particular person who keeps asking me to blog and post photos. haha. my dear teo yanqi, i finally got the photos from mike.

so here's photos of my first trip to malaysia for Ling and Yeo's wedding dinner - KL and Kedah.
** warning: lots of photos! **